The candles went off, oh no, oh no! What did I do wrong Light of mine? I had my two angels with me, now they are gone, they turned the lights off right in front of me! Something went wrong, very wrong, maybe I was not with the right behaviors, or they saw something coming, something not right?
What will happen now, what will happen? Would they come back to me, would they? This is what I am talking about my sweet God from the Ain Soph, the challenges are just so, so much that it is actually depressing. One would think that with two angels by my sides nothing bad would happen to me, but no, no, I am the one in control as always. Moreover, if some crazy egos are controlling my mind, then I am being control as well, right? But no matter what, it is still my fault?
I will work on this, I will work harder until I bring all these legions to dust, until only stillness exist. I am just asking Divine One to help me with this, please, please send my Divine Mother to the rescue. My heart is weeping, my heart is shattered, please mend it again, please do!